Stuck
You ever have words inside you and have absolutely no idea how to get them out? It's like being stuck in mud and knowing exactly the tools you need to get yourself out (hell, they might even be right there next to you), but every time you try and use them everything gets all mixed up and you end up no better off than you were before.
I feel stuck a lot lately. As an individual, as an American, and as a human being, I feel like we're all stuck. Individually, I keep doing the same stupid shit over and over again, only to say, "As soon as X happens, I can do Y." Except X never happens, either because I'm too lazy to do it or too scared. As part of the national community, my perception (and it is very important that I emphasize that it is my perception and, as such, I havent' done any real, hard research to back this up) that our current credit crisis is the result of a great many people following the desire presented to them from various media outlets and a few others exploiting that lust and stupidity. I, myself, exist in that group of great many people that owns things we don't need, stuck chasing some dream. Lastly, as a human being, haven't we all fought about enough of the same stupid shit for centuries already? Certainly ideologies and viewpoints will always clash, but some of these battles today have been echoed for over a thousand years and, yet, we're still stuck in the same place now as we were then.
I feel negative, spiteful, or tired (sometimes combinations thereof) on a pretty much daily basis. I feel stuck and nothing I've done so far as gotten me unstuck. Maybe that's the way it's always been since I can't really remember a time when it hasn't been like this (barring childhood, but that's a whole different type of perception). Maybe this is how we've plodded through the millennia. <Insert relevant quote from belief system, i.e. karma/reincarnation, purgatory, etc...) >
I wish I had some profound answer for this, but I don't. I wish I had the words, or even the patience to have written this more eloquently, but I don't. I'm stuck watching myself and people around me in varying degrees and types of proximity repeat the same patterns.
I feel stuck a lot lately. As an individual, as an American, and as a human being, I feel like we're all stuck. Individually, I keep doing the same stupid shit over and over again, only to say, "As soon as X happens, I can do Y." Except X never happens, either because I'm too lazy to do it or too scared. As part of the national community, my perception (and it is very important that I emphasize that it is my perception and, as such, I havent' done any real, hard research to back this up) that our current credit crisis is the result of a great many people following the desire presented to them from various media outlets and a few others exploiting that lust and stupidity. I, myself, exist in that group of great many people that owns things we don't need, stuck chasing some dream. Lastly, as a human being, haven't we all fought about enough of the same stupid shit for centuries already? Certainly ideologies and viewpoints will always clash, but some of these battles today have been echoed for over a thousand years and, yet, we're still stuck in the same place now as we were then.
I feel negative, spiteful, or tired (sometimes combinations thereof) on a pretty much daily basis. I feel stuck and nothing I've done so far as gotten me unstuck. Maybe that's the way it's always been since I can't really remember a time when it hasn't been like this (barring childhood, but that's a whole different type of perception). Maybe this is how we've plodded through the millennia. <Insert relevant quote from belief system, i.e. karma/reincarnation, purgatory, etc...) >
I wish I had some profound answer for this, but I don't. I wish I had the words, or even the patience to have written this more eloquently, but I don't. I'm stuck watching myself and people around me in varying degrees and types of proximity repeat the same patterns.
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